Big Deal.

People need to mind their business once in the while.
& yeah i appreciate the kindness, and like all the caring youre giving me, but im not in the mood for you to tell me what or waht not to do. okay?!

and I'm sorry if ive been really bitchy or something lately, like getting mad super easily, but lately everythings just so confusing! liek okay so my love life is going pretty good, but now i dont know what i should do. sometimes i feel liek he DOESNT like me so im like shit i dont want to be annoying, and just end up getting hurt, so what if its best to drop it? but hell no i dont want to cuhs i really really like him! i need a sign D: and its pretty depressing how he said that peopel told him i make arelaly really big deal out of things. half of the people who told him that shit probably doesnt know what ive been through -_-x im a sensitive person, but thats not my fault. lord have mercy -__- well idk. im falling for him so i wont give up yet! D: i just need to know he likes me for reals :/ i have trust issues.

Schools almost over and im so heppy! (=
i pray for you every night no matter what i say :/
Youre the best thing thats ever happened to me.
I wish we would get along.
I miss you.
We need to talk.
Are you getting sick of me?
Whats happened to the world?

Just questions to people.. you probably cant guess who >< hehe.

well yeah im pretty tired but i have orchestra AGAIN -_X til lliek 930 fuck my life. not realkly! just life is getting stressful again, but i was trying to be so happy! -_- i wish i never got involved in stupid shit. i need a break good thing summer break is coming at this time. i want to leave forever.everyone just .. to me now -_-x idk.

-LOVE pck. <3

lalaland.

I think right now everyone needs a break from everything!
seriously just reading peoples blogs, just gets me so down, especially one person, we used to be so close and like although we do say hi and bye occasionally i miss going to each others' houses sleeping over and talking about pointless thing for hours she probably is reading this, but yeah if you know who you are, i miss seventh and eigth grade when we were so close, remember all those weird times, like the jumper incident, and all that shit? yeah i guess high school really changes people, but reading your blog, it just gets me down, and i wish i could be there for you like i used to be, but you have your new friends now.

LOL okay i just wanted to let that out its been inide me for a while..

right now i dont want to care abotu anything, cuhs im just so happy about the guy i like <3 hehe but NO WE ARE NOT TOGETHER! for everyone who is askign, i wish we were, but thats it 5/23/09 is just a good day cuhs i held hands for the first time ever HAHAHA. how sad.

anyways, yeah happy memorial day? (: summer soon so lets chill alot! <3 nexxt week is so busy with auditions, recitals, concerts, rehearsals, and finals, WISH ME LUCK D: im so worried, and fitness testing man im out off shape PAHAH obviously wahtver fuck this shit! okay well smile kiddos (: i hope that my happiness can spread like the swine flu to you guys cuhs im a pig oink oink (=
hehehe love you guysss <333 (:


orchestra later. FUCK -_-X

well yeah happpy happpyy! :D schools almost over remember?
& i hope that if that guy ever asks me out we last lojng :D
HEHEHE.

-LOVE Pck<3(:

Best Day EVER (: <3

So for everyone whose gonna ask why,
well let me tell you why (: heheh
so today lets see slept over sarah's house friday night which was totally fun <3 and then got picked up and my dad visited with my old DOG <33 and i was so happy cuhs i really missed him (:and we chilled with my dog and stuff till like 3 and then i went out to target and FINALY bought a freakign microwave, and then bought a new vneck (= and uhh then got home and did my hair and makeup and got dressed, and then picked up prisca at like 545 and headed out to cuee! (:andd we waited for a bit and then billy and david otsu came (; and yeah i met david for the first time but hes super chill (: and like yeahh hes not awkward. HAHAHA. im weird. but yeah and we ate which was kinda awkward, and then we took pictures at cue (: pictures are coming soon just dont have a scanner! but yeah so the four of us took a booth, and then me and billy just took one together (: and it was fun (= and mm then we went outside into the COLD and walked arond, then we sat and played truth or dare, which was kind of pointless cuhs billy was the only one who would ACTUALLY do his dares ahah and we all just chose truth -_- and uhh then david left and mm it was super cold, and let's just say... i'm not virgin hands anymore >< PAHAHHA. so yes that is why my day was the bset day ever (: <3. but yeah i hope this one lasts long, cuhs i really really really like this guy so yeah (= im glad im finally happy, and something is ACTUALLY workign out for once! :D but yeah thanks to prisca for coming <3 (: heheh.

yeah idk why i just explained all that but yeah i just wnated tooo (:

and i hope this weekend is good, cuhs yeah but i dont care cuhs im smiling like a fool everytime i think about today :D <3

time to go watch movies! (: heheh.

5/23/09 best day ever <3 (:

Brace Yourself..

LOL :D everybody be happy for whoever didn't win seriously its okay! (: <3

CRYSTAL LEE- YOU DID SO EFFING GOOD & YOU DID YOUR BEST SO FUCK WHOEVER WON I CANT EVEN REMEMBER HIS NAME CUHS THATS HOW UN IMPORTANT HE IS MMKAY? smile lady (: youre always there when im down! (: <3

EVELYN NAA- dude you did good okay?! (: dont be mad i think it should have been you, BUT atleast we'll know he'll get the job done y'know?! (: <3 so smile lady , ill be here for you like when you always send me those smile texts! (:

MICHELLE KIM- you made THE best bracelets, and they were so cute (= i think you would have been so good cuhs youre good at everything! dont sweat it (: it was gay though D: im here for yah babe (: <3

MICHELLE PARK- its okay bud! you did your best with them balls (; heheheh jk thats gross. dont worry! (: next year for sure hubba! (: <3 remember that?


anywho, been thinking about the past, and the prsent, and the future, and hoenstly, i miss the past, im sick of the present, and im scared of the future, so i really dont know where i fit into this whole mess we call a world, but i'm sticking through it.:D mm i juts baked like for two hours, for the guy i likes birthday (= hehe <3

hmm this week is / was so busy! and next week too -_- gahh auditions coming up and im not ready! D: wish me luck <333
heheh (:

tryna be happy , getting sick of pushign myself so hard -_-x i feel bad cuhs lately im getting pissed off at everything cuhs im like freakign cranky cuhs i barely get sleep -_-x and im sorry if i bitch at you or something, its just not my time righ tnow. LOL >< if that made sense. well yeah so tryna chill out, but everylittle thing seems to get on my nerves -_- i need some anger managemenet. AND OMG band awards night i got freaking drama queen but IM NO DRAMA QUEEN
AHAHAHAHHAHA >< oh well (;

stay coool fools! (; im the master ryhmer :D

-LOVE pck <3

Fridays (;

Are always/ usually good >< LOL.
today was a pretty good one!

but ohmygosh, YESTERDAY WAS THE WORST DAY EVER. lemme tell you, okay so first I woke up late, and then I get out of the house, and forget my horn so I run back in, and then i\I get to kays house and i realize that I don't have my sister's binder so I drop my horn and RUN over to my house,and get my sisters binder, and as I get out of the car to school, I fucking drop my sister's binder in a fucking puddle, and then a few seconds later I TRIP -_-X wtf man. it was like THE worst day ever. and then the past few days I've been wearing like shorts and like something breezy, and it's pretty cold, and then Ia wore freaking skinny jeans, dress, and thick cardigan yesterday, and ALL OF A SUDDEN it's hot. WTF MAN -_-X but enough on that.

TODAY was a pretty good day (=, hmm we didn't play in band , which was a total plus <3 and then uh during brunch, the guy I likee, came to my area for like the first time, (: and gave me my good luck hug, and I seriously think it helped! LOL and uhh during lunch, went to the peer counseling thing, and pretty bummed out that I missed out on it, but watching the guy I like battle was pretty funny ;D hehe, and I think he looked super cute in his flannel, no matter WHO says he looks like a GAY FARMER ;D hahaah <3. mm, during french, stupid chelsea made me run to my locker and get her cardigan, and then she didn't even need it. GAY and I like got freaking minus 6 out of 35 on my quiz which is bad! I think. LOL. mm and then after school, jared let me borrow his ukulele or whatever, and OMG I really want one! it's so cool :D hehe I can KINDA play theheh, compared to how bad I am at guitar, I think I did pretty good :D mm and uhh got my new picture with the guyy, FINALLY (;

So overall, this week was pretty good. like, well just tuesday, and today I think were the best days >< PAHAHA. mm, the one thing I really hate though, is how a guy can change my whole mood. you know? like if the guy hurts my feelings, my whole day will be SHIT,but then if he does something sweet, it's like the best day ever. it's pretty gay, I wish I were like deborah, she gets happy over small things, which is really good. LOL like food, she gets sooo excited everytime she thinks about waht she's gonna eat. HAHAH

anywhoo, dress shopping soon!? hopefully, cuhs I really need a new dress, I want to look pretty on band awards night (=

I just remembered this quote someone told me something like, that you know youre in love, when reality, has become better than your dreams or something?.. yeah (: i'm not saying i'm in love, cuhs that's way too soon, but I haven't felt this happy in a while, and i'm glad, that I met this guy, cuhs he makes me smile, whenever i need it (: <3 I just hope I don't push him away or do stupid things that'll just end up hurting me -_-x WHATEVER, too soon for that shit! (:

Love what you have, and live life, like theres no tomorrow, there wont be any room for regret (=

-LOVE pck. <3

One of THOSE days..

HAHA, okay so I know I said I'd do happy blogs, so here it is, im gonna do HALF happy H HALF how im really feeling :D deal? deal :D
hehehe, im talking to myself.

anywayss...
so let's see today was pretty shitty day cuhs like lunch, that one guy was like sitting with the girl that likes him, and then like she always flashes me weird looks so I feel like some creeper, and then I just acted like I didn't care, so I haven't even talked to that guy the whole day D: BOO HOO for me, haha whateverss, I don't like having to text him first all the time, LOLOL i sound like such a whiney brat, BUT just not today, it's seriously like I'm not having a good day, so if I talk to him then GREAT, cuhs i need a cheering up, but then if he doesn't talk to me today, then I'll just go through with my bad day -_- lame. cuhs I dont want him thinking im some weird over reacting psycho. HAHAHA >< well anywyas, after that my sister bitched at me for no effing apparent reason, and MAN i need a hug so bad right now -_- too bad for me LOL everybody give me a big hug tomorrow (; ugh i hate my sister seriously she keeps like beating on me like jsut cuhs she feels like it, i hate her i really really really want to leave this place. -____- fuck. and then my fuckign fifth period teacher, got pissed at me cuhs i had to go run to my sister, cuhs she lost her freakign keys -_-x and so yeah, today wasn't a great day, but let's be happy now..

KJGHAKJGHKSJG
HAHAHAH (: omg dude i soudn so fuckign bipolar HAHA (;
so after school janelle came over, and we had a really good talk (: hehe that brownie in the back pantry ;D you and me janelle <3 we get it (:hehe i think oyu & brownie should get together :D he's cute (= like seriously i'd go for him HAHA (: so do it :D heheh and uhhh i made pasta today and i think i should be a chef (; lol and julia the great gave mea bag load of strings, so MORE BRACELETS! lol its kinda fun now (= im thinking about making like matching bracelets for me and people (; hehe. man im such a loser i just sit here and sing by myself when im home alonee . LOl dude i need to study for my freaking math midterm, which is friday -_-x and im gonna fail f'sho.LOLOl oh well ill just study real real real hard :D since im not texting today, its all good (; but id rather be texting D: but i guess not :/ LOl wtf anywhoo yeah

my sisters walkign around ina fucking dress, and i want to suicide right now its so sick
LOLOL (=

life's full of sluts& whores, and if thats what you want, GO FOR IT. but that's a mistake (;

hehe well time to study. YEAH RIGHT :D hehehehe, oh my, im talking to myself huh how embarassing....

so today
OH my goodness
oh MY goodness
oh my GOODness
oh my goodNESS

HELLO my name is christien
hello MY name is christine
hello my NAME is christine
hello my name IS christine
hello my name is CHRIStine
hello my name is chrisTINE

hhehe , try sounding those out, emphasize the capatlized words, it soudns so funny (;

well yeah, so today sucks balls. i wish he'd text mee. oh well.

-LOVE pck <3

Fresh Start.

Okayy so i deleted ALLL them emo blogs guys! (:

and just kept my FIRST blog ever. hahah cause i was tlaking to crystal and debbie while we were WORKING OUTT, and then i realized im like soo stressed, and like pretty people are happy, so i need to be happy! :D and like i get so many pimples cuhs of stress too LOLOL and like yeahh i just need to be a happpier person overall! (:

okay so, today was liek THE BEST DAY EVER. like first of all, i REALLY liked my outfit today, and we hada free day in MATH PLUS i found out i got agood grade on my test, and then omg lunch <3 so i told the guy i like, that i like him, and he likes me back! (: i was so happy, it was like SOOO unexpected, cuhs even though he KINDA acted liek it, i doubted taht he would like a girl like me! D: but i shant be pesssimistic AHAH havent used taht word in centuries, but yeah (: so it was such a good day<3 (: and i like when he gives me hugs its so like (: <3 it makes my days, i wish he would hug me every single day ;D HAHAHA.

EHH but im pretty liek wtfy about summer school. cuhs i got in which is good, BUT mrs.irving wont let me take chemistry my sophmore year, which means i have to take freakign peer counsling, which is gay cuhs the onjly reason i payed 360 FREAKIGN DOLLARS TO TAKE A CLASS I CAN TAKE FOR FREE NEXT YEAR, is so i can be caught up in science with all my friends! wtfuck man im so pissed -_-x
BUT WHATVER.

ughh should be doign math homework right noww, fuck that bitchh i hate her! -_-x
she cant teach for her effing life man! D:

but whateverrss, hopefully, ill be in a relationship later on this school year or somethign (;
haahah jkjk, i wish! D:

kk well happy happy day (: ill try positing HAPPY blogs from now on (: <3 its a fresh start! (;

-LOVE pck <3