CONFUZZZLEDDD.

new word :)
ugh dude so IDK WHAT TO DO MAN. like i wanna try for it, but i know im gonna get hurt in teh end, and yet i still wanna try. does that make sense? like blah ): its so scary, i guess, but ive been waiting SO long for this itsliek why not? but idk if youre just gonna turn your back on me liek last time. HELP ME. just tell me ): <3


anywhooo. (: i love alvin and the chipmunks < 3 its so cute omg SOOOO EFFING CUTEEE (:


i need a new man, maybe the one that im talking about up there, idk (: <3

bye (:

lately

i think im getting better from everything. so much shits been going on, but like im getting better. yesterday&today just MADE my whole break. i think.. haha X) like its been so hard , and then what YOU told me just made me like brighten up, and now i cant stop smiling :) <3

i hope we can start over. if youre reading this, i never let go, never will let go, and i love you (: <3

pahah. oh CRYSTALLLL LEEE, your comment made me SO happy (: <3 idk why.

hmm, so i needa start bloggin more, it makes me feel better. im at my cousins place right now, and im doign stupid homework -_-x i shoudlnt have procrastinated.

IM SO SAD, that imma be gone for new years eve, but lets make plans for new years someone! <3 cuhs imma make sure i come back in tim for that (=

my foots sleeping.

bye (:

yeah yeah yeah.

merry christmas! not so christmasy though. some holiday. spending it alone and not even with family -_-x dont you ever wonder why the fuckk some shit happens? yeah i do alot. im not realy in the christmas mood.
im at kays house right now and she is showering so im waiting for her <3(: heh i sound liek a creeeep.!

hmmm. like seirously. you. you cant tell me what to do. you cant control my life. so please dont act like youre such a great person cause you arent.

hey,. hey you. i think i kinda like you.. :o but im never gonna tell you because you just wouldnt look at me liek that! AWKWARDDDD. hahah (: i wish you would get a clue and notice.

if i didnt have you in my life, it would be meaningless, and dull, and id have no one to tp with and just enjoy life with no worries,.itd be like this blob of worries in my life if it werent for you and i thank god every day that i have a friend liek you <3

STOP CONFUSING ME. okay? one day youre in love with me the next day were just friends. its either it or not. god. some friend you are.

im glad we patched things up, i feel closer to you ever since.

youre a hyppocrite.

you werent even worth my time and ims orry i had to deal with your bullshit. im gonna find someone else and show you whatsup.


these were just to a few people (;
yeah some are harsh. its reality.

i realized my whole life ive been such a fucking push over. but im so sick of it. no more bullshit no more taking it as it is or letting people blame for what i dont deserve. im gonna be tough andim gonna do whati wanna do cuhs its my life. after this whole breakup thing ive gotten stronger and im glad. yeah i havent talked to anyone really about this break up, but whatevers its life and ill live and go on. im glad i figured it out now rather than later. once a cheater always a cheater as they say. okay. no more bitch. AHAHAH

(: merry christmas everyone <3

i sound so bipolar ><

<3 pck.

The way things are.

Yeah. i make my decisions and you make your decisions. and okay im sorry for whatever the fuck i did but hey i know what i did and im okay with it. becuase yeah maybe when people fight they can fight back but did you ever ask about my side? did you ask me h ow i feel. FOR ONCE in my life FOR ONCE id ecided i wanted to stand up for myself i wanted to be an individual not a follower who doesnt do b ad things , yeah. so i made the decision and i went through. and i know its wrong but you know what? i dont regret it because it made mehappy and it helped me let go.
and you know what? he can undo what i did he can wash it off he can brush it off he can clean it away and forget about it. CAN I? can i just brush off what he did to me,? can i jsut forget about it liek its nothing? can i just let go? I CANT and he can i didnt kill him i didnt CHEAT i did something thats erasable into his life. it didnt hurt him it didnt break his heart, because at least he didnt have to fucking see it happen in frontof his face. so yeah judge me say i did wrong, but atleast he can take back what id id. I CANT OKAY I JUST FUCKING CANT. and ive been scared tos ay it, BUT IT HURTS. so dont you dare say that im a bad person that you have no respect for me? well what about m y respect for you it hasnt diminished so yeah im sorry. but at least i didnt get mad at you and upset for something as little as thing. im a big girl and i can make my own decisions and if youre gonna make htat decision to dropt his friendship after how long? then okay. well im sorry but i dont deserve this caise i want to be happy and i deserve to be happy. and i will be happy no matter what you say. i want to be happy and i will be happy. no more having peopel step on me . okay? because ive been through shit and i k now what the fuck the world is so dont even act liek id ont know what the real world is.

Christmasss

im pretty excited! but i used all my money to buy shit -_-x.

i havent blogged in forever.

today i went shopping wiht my sister and i only had a few bucks -_-x i used it on a present ): boo hoo. heh but i got janelle one more thing today (: <3 cuhs i love you bitch! mm OH and my moms friend gave her 200 dollars to nordstroms and i used it to get a juicy couture necklace <3 im so happy i always wanted one ): and it was only 50! and i really wanted a wallet from there and it was on sale but NOOO my sister the bitch only let me use 50 -_-x holiday season is such a stressful se ason! even though it shouldnt be.

oh yeah and GET THE FUCK OUT BITCH. NO ONE FUCKIGN LIKES YOU SO WHY DO YOU INSIST ON ACTING LIEK THEY DO -_-X ugh., i hate wannabes. i also hate hyppocrites but we cant help but live with them.

so much shittt -_______________-x im glad i have peer counselign to vent to people.

I wish.

sometimes, just sometimes id feel okay to be scared. this scared. this lost. but it never is. i dont know why. when you feel theres nothing out there.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CZtUA9_ID0U


some friends, huh?

SWINEEE FLUUU

nah i didnt have it (:
i had the stupid regular flu ): and i felt TERRRIBBLEEEE gahh i never thought id get it! ): AND I DIDDDD!

i havent blogged in so long ):
you know lately i feel so left out of my friends group. idk why. not cause ive been sick but like ive been feeling like this forever and i thought if i cant be accepted with people iveknown like practically my whole life, who can i really be accepted by? :/ eh but i dont mention that shit cuhs their not into that bullshitt. when youre sick its funny cuhs you realize who your real friends are -_-x

whatevers.


i hate being sick. missing three days of school is not cool. and my boyfriend didnt even support me that well either. i realized its time to think whats real and whats not.

e=mc2 :D

dudddeeeeee.
yeserday was bomb (:
okay so.
went shopping and ate with the mom and sister for college shopping and then after got dressed and then went to a concert in la and until 10 where the guys were FINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEE as helll, and then liek HOLY SHIT MANN.but yeah after i went to this SUIPER COOL SUSHI PLACE and it only cost 20 bucks for liek 30 plates of sushi . not exaggerating at all.! and then uhuhuh after went to NRB (: ande sang taylor swift <3 and 8282 and all this other shit. i didnt know you can slow down songs :o hehe. im a newb. OH and i got yogurt land (; it was chill. but then i felt young cuhs everyoen was college.

OMG OKAY SO FUNNIEST STORY EVER THAT THE GUY TOLD./

okay so
" i was at albertsons other day, and i was just shopping for food with my friend, and then i see this homeless lady walk in, right? and thats so interesting so we decide to follow her right? and she goes to the wayy back to the frozen meat section, and she grabs those big frozen hams, and she sticks it under her shirt like shes PREGNANT and i can see her mouthing im gonna do this! so she starts walkign out, and seh freakign gets past the cashier, gets past the manager, gets past the damn secruity guard, and when shes near the exit, theres this big BOOM and the ham drops and sehs just looking at it and she looks around and everyonearound her is STARING and she goes, FO' REAL THOUGH, WHO THREW THIS HAM AT ME? and she just walks out of the market."

LOLOL <3 (: yeah some people thought it was funny, some not, but i think its jus cuhs i cant speak for shit. LOL (:

ANYWHOOOO today was a bad day -_-x oh lord.
well actuallyt he begginning was good movies with jiyougn and debbie (; WATCH ALL ABOUT STEVE ITS FUCKGIN HILARIOSU AND CUTE LOLOLOL (: hmmm, but at night when i got home -_-x
oh my gosh. i hat emy si ster so much.


i figured out what imma get the boy for 100th day (: i needa start i have 6 days ---x FUCKKK. kay kay .

so i neeeda do hw.

peace out (:

drop it drop it.

LOL you knwo the song that goes liek
DROP IT DROP IT LOW GIRL DROP IT DROP IT LOW GIRL...
is actually kinda cachy (= HAHA i have issues -_-x
anywyass emo depressing blog last week.
i hate school
still


sosososo. i feel so sick la tely i swear ---x
and i hate homework.
i hae school..
idk how to express how much i hate school.
LOL

and omg the nback to school bash was so lame -_-x watse of my 11 bucks!
but saturday was so fun <3
wen t to santa monica outlet wiuth my dad and went shopping and tehn went to lauras wedding with pamela and janelle <3 it was so fun :D like dressing up hen going out after and watchign the time travelers wife which was soo confusing o.o and eating out ;D

and today was liek blah cause i took a 2hr drive to oxnard beach or w/e and ate nasty sushie that cost 160 dollars hat my uncle made my mom pay for and they didnt evne fuckign fnish. they ate two fuckign bites and they were hte ones who MADE us come -__x so LAME
and hten we had to stand around in the heat for 3 hours waiting for them to shop cuhs we were to --_x to shop! --___-- but seeing the babies was worth it <3
(:
and farmers market kettle corn is oh so good :D

and then comign home after a long day is so nice :D <3
but yeah.


sometimes i rreally get frustrated with my family I SWEAR ---X

well yeah tired.
so time to
go watch tv :D
LOL <3

-LOVE pck.

School is so not cool.

i hate school so much. its like
in the mornings i feel liek a fuckign loser and then liek walking to classes im so lonely i really wanna cry -_-x no lie. its so depressing.
HAAHHA D:
i feel liek such a loner omg.

anyways. classes are pretty OK. i guess. but you know its like WHATEVSSS
I kinda wanna move foo! D:
but whatevers.
its hot right now


i started watchign 90210 and its SOO FUNNN (: hehe i wish i was rich D: stupid sluts!.
guys are so cute in it. i think white guys are so cute. (:

but i still love my boyfie! :D <3


okay nothing to say just i hate school. and i hate skinny rich people! D:
(:

oh and i miss you foo.

-LOCVE pck <3

hair cut

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIEF I LOVE IT (: HEHEHEH <3

i didnt cry for the first timee. :D LOL wahtta baby -__x

hmmm summers ending in like a few days and im freaking mad D: im like not even ready@! SHIATTTT. -_-X

im watchign i love you man and its so funny (= hmm marching band is pretty lame.

i delted the other one cuhs i have more tos ay!
HM,MM
i hate it i hate it i hate it

when i fight with the boyfie. ITS SO ANNOYING IM GETTING SO SICKK OF ITT. itslike annoying omg liek really? how many times can we fight a day?! D: its really depresssing fighing so much.,l im so lost and confused with everything.

tonight was fun. :D hehe i never yeah. >< imma good girl (= always and forever!

i love my friends.
i hope i still have friends later on :D not like in i loev you man where hes a loner. LOL

Oogabooga!

OMG KAY i just realized i promised my next title would be this (: so here it is <3 heh :D
i really miss my husband ):

mmm so so so this past week was hell cuhs of stupid marching band AT FIRST it was all okay and then when that gay mexican instructor came it turned to WTF MAN. D: LOl but it wasnt THAT bad i kinda liked it >< oh except Thursday .______________.X the most surprising phone call of my life. heart breaking. and then i hung out with billy and randy at his place at night after and met his dad and then went to sleep over the besties with prisca! (: and uhuhuh like when i woke up prisca and deborah kept saying "good morrow thy saucy fellow" and lord i was SOOOO ANNOYED! -_-X so i just woke up and then prisca left and OMG another traumatizing call. even worse ): i hate crying. its really lame! but yeah and then i went to brea with my sister and uh uh uh hmm then went to church at night! TWO churches. firs church was scary and i cried alot and bleh ): but it was all for the good of you. so its okay. I'm always here for you. no matter what! (: and uh then prisca picked me up and went to her church with olivia (: and had fun. hmm then went home and uh had a realy really long nice phoen call (: i liked it good ketching up with a good friend :D i love those.

OH TODAY I WENT TO IRVINE SPECTRUM (= for the french thing but went shopping after >< hmm and like i bought new vans and a dres and a headband and uh earrings and yeah :D I WAS O HAPPY LOLOL AND me and my sister LIED to my dad and said we had NOO money so he gave us a shitload of money adn my mom acually gave us money. LOL. i was my MOMS devious plan too (:< lovin it!

so now im going to go hang out with the boyfie :D
and tomorrow is BEACH with the family. well not family. just everyoen minus dad >< hmm but yeah itll be fun (: baby cousins & bike cars. LOVE THOSE :D

i love good days. whenevr you havea good day you feel liek EVERYTHINGS going right (:

but thast not today. LOLOLOLOL :D

okay well time to unpack my shit. (:

Some People

really need a reality check!
this past weekend/today was really bad. i think the coming days are gonna be even worse. i hate crying. my eyes get all swollen and stuff. its just not pleasant! ):

hmmm so fought with the boyfie cuhs he didnt want to go to homecomign with me and he said that we can just go to back to school dnace -_-x wow. clueless boys. but i still miss him. hes comin back tonight hopefully!

I HATE BAND CAMP ITS TOO EASY ): i wanted it to be hard so i can lose weight since im on a diet. HAHAHAH :D lovin it. let me tell you taht.

oh BTW let me tell you taht is my new phrase. (= hehe.

hmm so band camp is gonna be over on thursday for the week and then i must go to do french homework at irvine -__x IDK HOW TO INTERVIEW SOMEONE ): hmmm and i didnt even finish julius caesar and i msut read lord of the flies -_-x FUCK

you stress me out. you really do. but even though youre like that to me youll still always be my good friend.

lets just all try to smile guys before SCHOOL starts -_-x
((: ((: ((: ((: ((: ((: <3
ha ha ha ha.

-PCK <3

shabalanadingdong.

WOW well i read like peoples blogs and man HOW DO YOU COME UP WITH THEM TITLES? its pretty inspiring :D im liek DAMNIT I WISH I THOUGHT OF THAT TITLE! :D
hehe i have no life. seirously -_-x

hmm so from like monday- today all i did was like work on julius caesar with the girls! :D hmm monday i got my schedule and then i walked at night with the girls except prisca wasnt pickin up that hoe! and then tuesday the girls came over and i walked from like my house to target and WHOO the walk back was KILL-ER! -_-X but good exercise :D hehe and then wednesday we didn really do anything but then dbeorah came over and swam and then we walked to park with the girls and then slept over priscas (= and i MADE Them watch twilight I LVOE TWILIGHT hehe but yeah and then today j ust worked on julius caesar and went to mall and then julie devin and julia and i went to the pool :D heheh. DEVIN AND JULIE ARE SO CUTE IM SO JEALOUS i jsu wanted to slap them but julies too nice so i shant (= if youre reading his julie LOLOLOL ;D <3 but yeah im jealous. with deivns pimp ring. i think hes gonna like abuse her but then ill save her (=. hmm.

so yeah OH SO this is random but WHENEVER i get a new comment on blog i can always know that one will be michelle park (: and i love you for that dearie! you actually stick through this WHOLE BORIUNG LONG BLOGL. LOLOLO L HHEEEEEELARRREEEEEOUS! :D

well yeah im hyper D:

I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOOL. ): and i think that i am in love with michael cera (= or is it sera or is it sarah or is it not even hat :D it is. i think im on crack. jkay :D

i think im going crazy cuhs i miss billy so much -________________________x LAMELAME LAME.

i love you you love me lets get to gether and something soemthign barney. with a great big smile and a kiss from me to you wont you say you love me too? wow barnie.


hehe yeah (: mm i need to finish french homeowrk and english ): BOO YO UWHORE.

goodnight!

Life

gets so tiring! EEK. its like constant non stop worrying or working or breathing or SOMETHING. theres never a TRUE break. thats what i want! :D hmm.

today was my two month anniversary and i had to be alone cuhs he is in texas ): havent seen my booo in like a week! two more weeks D: I HATE TEXAS! D:

LOL.
hmm

BAND CAMP AND THEN SCHOOL STARTS fuck and i didnt even fucken start hmwk OR the stupid ass french 3 honors hmwk ._________________.x regret anyone?

mmmmmmmm alot of people have been asking me if im still with billy lately. its so random >< HAHA O.O

I LOVE NICK AND NORAHS INFINITE PLAYLIST its so cute <3
this is a pretty random blog.
i think i have insomnia i can never sleep anymore -_-x
i try and hten BAM i wake up liek 1 second after i try to sleep.
it sucks.
D:

gibberishgibberishgibberishgibberishgibberishgibberishgibberishgibberishgibberishgibberish.
:D
thast how bored i am!

well tyme to try to sleep :D

PEACE.

Vegas was..

SO FUN (=
okay besides the fact that it was damn hot i loved it (; especially since i went with the bestie!

so hmm first dayy i checked in and then SHOPPING (= i think i used liek 80 the first day.
it was like all presents and then i bought a caridgan and lip gloss (: everythigni bought was on sale HEHE.
hmm and liek we walked so much .____________. i was liek FUCKK but it was fun.
and then the second day we went shopping and i swear we walked liek 4 miles -_-x it was SOO much and it was hot. i hated it. but afer we got to the hotel and i liek used half of my money on liek presents for all my besties <3 hehe uhh i like straightened my hair with deborahs aunts straightener and i fell iN LOVE i swera i took liek AMILLION pictures -__x and i got dressed up for no reason and we ate a buffet so after me and deborah wanted to exercise so we walked to all these hotels hhe :D
and then third day i used ALL my money but it was worth it cuhs i bought alotta stuff. i bough this super cute shirt from nike for the boyfiee (= and chocolate for his parents -_x LOl i am a pushover :D LAME. hmm and i bought other stuff (: heheh it felt so good to be able to ACTUALLY use my money for once >< and OMG that day we fucken ate a big ass buffet again and it was SOOO nice and me and dbeorah were liek OH FUCK so we walked even more HEHE. (; and uhuh today we just came home after packing. ><

and then i felt fat so me and deborah walked to priscas housecuhs she wanted to walk AND SHE WASNT EVE FUCKEN THERE OMG. so sarah came and we waited for a while and then we just walked home. LOL -_-x waste of time.

HMM so at vegas you know those fucken creepy mexican guys wearing shirts that say GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS and they try to hand you thsoe cards with naked girls on it? well fucken i was only wearing dresses with no cardigans cuhs its HOT and you know my stupid big boobs? those cursed boobs@ LOL well they fu cken hit on me liek a shitfucker it was SO NASTY like omg okay so once there was aline of them and the first guy goes hey beautifull and hes all close to me and the second guy whistles at me and the third guys does the SMOOOCHY SMOOCHY noise with his mouth -_-x FUCK and the same night these differnet guys were like HEY I LIKE CHINEESE GIRLS@! and fuck it was so sick man! -_-x TRAUMATIZED MAN ): i hate pervs.

but yeah (= i took alotta pics and stuff. hehe.

here is some i love :D

Viva Las Vegas!

HEHEH about to leave with deborah (:
im so happy! i really needed a vacation. like NO joke.

hahah but when i come back i get to look forward to a week without seeing the boyfriend cuhs hes leaving to texas ): and a shitload of summer work!
GREAT!
-_-X im always thinkin bout the future. GLKJAHKJAS GAYY

but yeah im so excited :D wow im prety hyper and i slept at 4 and woke up at 7. LOL XD hehe hhmmmm.

i miss KAY HOU! if youre reading this! <3

mm and i still must hang with several people! >< hehe NRB ! <3 i always say that but it never happens so the week im back. WERE GOING. no lie im gonna drag our asses there (=

mmm so yeah summer break isnt that great but its better than school even though we had gay ass summer school which made the summer seem like it went ten times faster -_-x

BOO YOU WHORE. i wish summer school wasnt aloud cuhs of budget cuts! HAHAHA.

oh everyone watch the ugly truth!

did i mention that in a period if 4 days i watched twilight AT LEAST 10 times? and im not even exaggerating or whatever :o

heheh remember..
WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS STAYS IN VEGAS BABY <3

hehe JK (:

-LOVE pck. <3

HAIR CUT

i hate it so much ):
i look so nasty omg.
LOOK AT HOW SHORT IT IS I TOLD HER THAT IM GROWING IT OUT AND SHE JUST SHAVES IT ALL OFF I SWEAR.
OMG ):



FKHSDAJKRG todays a bad day ):
i hate fighting with you its so painful and constant. i wish itwould stop. i wish i could trust you.

FREAKING A.

fuck fuck . god i needa break. i think vegas is coming at a good time.

idk what to keep anymore.
its not worth it. ITS NOT.

FUCK i dont wanna take this shit anymoree.
so much stresssssss.



-_________________________________________________________-

i need trust.

its a bad night.

-LOVE pck.

Fun in the Sun!

Hmmm so things arent better but noo its not a boy break (:
its just personal stuff!

hmm so beach yesterday was superrr fun with the girls and billy and his friendss <3 (: i got to wear my new dresses and bought a light up pacifier :D hehe
OH and the waves were soooo crazyyy
DUDE AND CRYSTAL AND MICHELLE were liek at hunington too but i didnt even know ): im so sad.
LOL
hmmmm

OMG AND TODAY was good i watched the ugly truth with my sister and its SO FUCKIGN FUNNNY OMG you guys gotta watch it holy shit i love it :D hehe.

well yeah the new phone is very fun :D and mm i needa start summer work -_-x
FUCKKK vegas with the bestie soon <3
i needa practice and omg so much to do!
my canker sore hurts like a mother effer D:

COMMENT pictures on facebook (: LOLOL its the new myspace!


btw what IS the point of twitter? LOL
anyhooo yeah
I WANT TO GO TO NRBB
someone hit me up <3

lets hang guys! (: i still needa hang with julie and karan and michelle kim and so many more people! :D

alrighty i love my boyfriend for getting me twilight <3
YAY :D

imma go watch it. for the second time today (: i have no life...

-LOVE pck <3

HOLYMOLY

everything is wrong right now!

one little conversation and my whole perspective and everything that im living for isnt the same anymore.

IM SO CONFUSED i just dont know what to do now

FUCK FUCK FUCK
im screwed.

im screwed.

i need a break.
i need time to think.

-LOVE pck

dramma mammas!

HMMM. so it seems like everrbodayys havin drama :O
EXCEPT FOR ME :D HEHE <3 no offense yall (; but im glad i dont have drama with friends!
ehh but i DO have so much drama at home & love man. -_-x WHOO doggy its gay. LOLOl hannah montanna man :D ehhe i sound so gay. THREE MORE DYAS OF SUMMER SCHOOL <3.

so i realized i lket people just STEP on me like im a door mat ---x and i realize it but i dont do SHIT. i needa learn I SWEAR. omg its bad super bad. i even did someones project for them today rather than my own shit -_x- FUCK ME MAN. UGHH. whatevss
i needa start summer work ): i hate this summer. LOLOL

anywhoos. OKAY so ive been reading everyoens blogs so i want to do that guessting there so here goes (;

#0. I just realized i forgot about you! man yous bee my bitch since like forevahh man. i remember you would cusss so much in fourth grade.i admired you :D ehe now im like your mom i swear. taking care of you. i don know what you would do WITHOUT me (: but there are those rare occassions where you do save my ass <3 youre like one of my bestest friends even though we always get seperated! you the most craziest girl evverr & i luhh you (: youre my best bitch <3

#1. DUDE tight since we were rollin in our kiddie clothes, you're my best friend :D even though you're the biggest bitch ever and make fun of me and taunt me and make me eat all your food, i know SOMEWHERE deep deep down in that self conscious skinny body of yours you love me (=. crying in your sleep and showing me your pubes we've been through everything! <3 and waht i love is that i can be myself with you NO matter what. you dont judge me and man youre the best friend i could everr ask for! liek lord. no lie. its so obvious who this is cuhs everyone knows yous mah bestie. idk where id be right now if it wasnt for you. i luh you cuhs. no matter how much i like to laugh at you and bitch :D yous the best.

#2. You are one funny girl! you make me smile no matter what and wow you are smart ! you and me are the only ones who ever wanan go out though! HAHAH we are the planners. black & asian are just the followers :D you've been my friend since liek 3rd grade, and i remember when you got me liek 6 differnet presents for my chuck.e.cheese party (= that was coool. mm you have nice legs, and you're scared of me . I KNWO IT ;D youdont have a blog, but you are a nerd. you are liek one of the only ones who call me pck (= i love you fool. hanging out with oy uwas the best decision of my life (= SCRUBS BUDDY <3 you are the best :D

#3. You are the best daughter a mother could ask for. I swaer whenever i go to your hosue youre liek MOMMY (: and its inspiring. you are the sweetest girl ever and weve been friends for so long(; i love hanging out with youl. you laugh at everything, and youre so good at inspiring me! :D PLUS youre a good student i swear whenever you get a bad grade in math youre so sad and disappointed. i wish i could be like you! i love you so much (= but your dog bites hard ): still love it though! <3 you are so pretty but you are self conscious ): i wish i could be liek you man ! so down to earth.

#4. Dude you are like the chillest girl ever! :D french horn is the reason we met and im glad! <3 you are ALWAYS there for me and you always always notice when im down.! we used to be so awkward but now were liek GET HERE BITCH NOW! ;D i love it. you make my day all the time and you are so hilarious. you are the only friend who adds somethingboyyyy to all my boyfies and loves ;D im glad i met you and i know were besties forever! :D

#5. Man i think we were liek MEANT to be friends! i swear our families are like so similar with money and everythig AHHAH. youre always there for me even at 2 a.m (; you always write that on my card. >< you are liek the only person who i can have memories with about that INCIDENT or how you left me on the street when i fell off my scooter HAHA bffs to enemies to bffs (: eventhough we never talk we can alawyas be chill <3

#6. You are a really cool girl. (: i love your short hair better. <3 talking to you is always fun. ehhe im dating your brother ;D SUPPOSDELY.

#7. You're so skinny. im jealous! :D you're rich. im jealous! youre pretty. IM JEALOUS :D you are always alwyas there for me.a nd WE NEVER GET TO HANG OUT ON THOSE SUNDAYS. i got the hook up ;D HAHA jkay. youre a pretty chill girl. never let those things get to you :D nawmsayin?

#8. Havent talked to oyu in a while. you changed. youre still cute though! but still. wish we were still close as we used to be!

#9. DUDE. youre liek THE nicest chap girl ever. i swear.so innocent and cute. im really glad we met. no lie. english with you, always talkig about random things :D I LOVE how you like food so much its so amazing cuhs your skinny (; youre with my bset guy friend and im luvin it (; i hope we can NRB soon cuhs we NRB buddies (; <3

#10. i saw you at chipotle today :D youre so skinny. im jealous i love your legs ;D you are SO chill. and i love your innocent christineeeeeeee? its so cute (; im glad i met you!

#11. you kinda get annoying sometiems. youre a close friend but how much is too much? ><

#12. DUDE we never talk anymore. i rememebr we used to be SOOO tight. i think high school changed youu. D: we were liek buddies man going to each others houses, i was like the only person your mom would let you sleep over at ): now its like we dont even say hi! but its never awkward eventhough we dont talk which i love (: youre a sweet girl. just dont get in too deep.!

#13. You were the best thing that happened to me and I love you. I miss you. I'll miss you. I dont know where I'll be without you.

#14. You are sooo cutee (: and 6/4 is the best day cuhs of you <3 we fight alot but man youre the best (: i just cnat show it all the time. you disappoint me you hurt me but you love me. and i love that (: changee is always for the better you know. :D

#15. friends since kindergarden ;D youre blunt and i love it. youre so good at what you do and even with all that drama you always watched out for me. i love you (: stay chill . lets hang more!

#16/ STOP DOING THAT SHIT YOU HOE. -_-X

#17. Im glad youre my neighbor. im glad i met you . (: you make everything so easier idk where i would be without you >< love you. dont ever leave me :D


mm ill finish more later! :D cuhss im tired hehhe >< but yeah thats so far ;D

TIME TO WATCH PROM NIGHT. hehehe

tell me if oyu know who you are ;D

He Could Be the One

I watched that episode of hannah montana today :D lovin it <3
loving the song too.
& that phrase....

hmm.
he could be the oneee.
>< ideekay mann it's possible. weird thing is it isn't who i thought it'd be. :o no one will get this trust me. :P this is just my own personal thing. HAHA. ><

i love these lyrics.
its perfect for you.

Stop, tell me the truth
'Cause I'm so confused
Spinning round these walls are falling down and I need you
More than you know
I'm not letting go
I'm getting close
So take my hand
And please just tell me why

haha 5 more days of summer school left :D <3
yesterdy was fun with teh girls (=
weekend was wow.
love my bangs cut by my sister :D
hang with those kids tomorrow!
valencia friday-sunday
project sunday and maybe harry potter? (:
WHO'S UP FOR HARRY POTTER THAT DAY? :D hit me up. theh <3

i need to NRBB man and let out all my feelings :D

time fer homework -_-x
i hate the construction workers outside.

anywhoo doenst it feel like sometimes people are just soo BLEH its just liek once in a while you want to be alone and just let me think on my own and everyones always just so doenst get it? idk :D

-LOVE pck.

I hate

nice bitches.
SO MUCH liek theyre nice but damn theyre bitches. you cant do shit then cuhs then theyre so nice you feel bad. GAH i just wish all the nice bitches would just stop being bitches. (; hehehe. unless im one too then that sucks. PAHHAHA.

i also hate ungrateful people. those people with alot of shit, they dont have to worry about how they will get their next meal, those people who have everything they could ever wish for in the world, but only hate their life when one little shit goes wrong. it's not fair. theres peopel out there struggling. struggling man. i wish that i could look at the world and stop seeing hyppocrites and liars and fake ass bitches and wannabes and sluts and those people who just dont appreciate SHIT. i want those people to realize, but me wanting wont do shit without those kind of people, the nice people wont be apperciated, the nice peopel will go unnnoticed so i guess in some twisted way its okay.

and i hate those ungrateful people, who use me. i HATE being used, but i let people use me. im a total doormat and i just let people step all over me and push me around and use me. i have no voice, but yet i do. i cant speak for myself. i swear. liek for homework, for buying things, for rides, for whatvers i always get used. -_-x and i just let them. and thsoe people, who i mean i seirously my friendship with them, my whole friendship with them i try to hard, i do everything i can to please them, to help them, i sacrifice MYself to help them, i take the blame, whatver i do everything, and then i mess up once or they take somethign the wrong way for something i didnt even do, and then all of a sudden all that shit i did for them is gone and they dont appreciate me anymore. but all of a sudden they come crawling back to me cuhs they need something. again...
-_-x

i hate that.

i honestly wish i could move away. now its not a matter of my friends or my love or my school. i dont want to tkae it anymore. I dont know how much of it i can honeslty take -_-x. so many effed up people.

I also hate being poor. it just sucks ass. I hate being stupid. it sucks ass. I hate missing my dad so much it just kills. I hate not being able to raise money for my mom. it makes me wnat to die -_-x whatevers.

hey you. just take me with you. we can leave together. i love you anyways. it'll be worth it. just please take me with you. -_-x seirously.


sorry this one was so GHASJKGHASKJGAJK hehehe im not in a great mood as you can tell ><.

I think my life is like a song. it sounds so upbeat and happy but when you really really look and listen, theres so much behind it. theres so much more to it. but no one ever stops to take a look.

-LOVE pck.

One month/Fourth of July.

WAS SO GAYY -_-X
ughhhh okay so lets see havent blogged in a while!
eheh thats gay. okay anywhoo.
the past week was pretty okay i guess.
Thursday was chill cuhs i went to deborahs houseand we went to costco and ate samples thats the best just as logn as them dam stingy old ladies dont notice its you (: hehe.
hmm Friday was boring cuhs i was just home alone and i practiced and shit and then my sister and crystals sister took me out to eat (;
Saturday ughh saturday okay the day i am blogging about.. aughh oka so it was my one month on fourth of july how GREAT -_-X ugh. so i thought it was gonna be all good, BUT he said to come to his house at one then three and then four -_x and i got there by like 430 and then his grandpa tells his parents im there so we walk to my house later so that we can go to dbhs for fireworks. and then RIGHT when we get to my house his dad calls and tells him to walk back home cuhs hes not aloud to go and i wa sliek wtfuck -__x and i was SO disappointed but i didnt say anything and tehn i had to watch fireworks alone without a boyfriend on my one month anniversery and he didnt even text or call. i was so sad -__x but he made up for it today i guess. OH and the girlies slept over and we were so hyper until liek 4 and i knocked out >< heh.
TOday hmm today i went to watch public enemies and it was too long -_-x but it was pretty good. this weekend wasnt so great but whateverrs. ><

i hope this week will pass by soon

I SO WNAT TO GO TO BEACH AND NRB someone hit me up (: <3

heh im tired

-LOVE pck <3

TWILIGHT.

is my new obsession<3
omg i juts watched it for the first time today (; and it is the best. heheheh :D omg i love it edward cullen is so hot holy shit and the story plot is os cute
GHARSDJKGHJKR iw asliek wtfuck why is everyone so obsessed with it and NOW I KNOW WHY HOLY MOLY HE IS THE FUCKENHOTTEST MOFO ALIVE HES BETTER THAN LIEK I DONT EVEN KNOW BUT SHIT <3 OMG I LOVE THAT MOVIE imma go buy it (: someone buy it for me no lie! i will love you forever if you do (: <3 seriously holy moly guacamole he is so FUCKEN hot why did no one tell me sooner?! i wish my birthday was near so i can ask for twilight stuff (=- dude this is like my new super junior! idk if anyone gets that ;D but yeah HAEHHEEHHEHEHE <3 omg he is so fine (: i cant wait for new moon seriously imma be one of those dorks whose like sitting there waiting in line for hours just for the tickets to come out (= FUCK YEAH BITCHESSSS :D hehehe <3 anyways yeah.

its liek 120 in the morning and i should be studying for bio -_-x i felt liek SHIT but now im feeling pretty good cuhs of twilight (: <3 heh but stupid two boys. they know hwo they are always fucking with me -_-x just calm down guys. ugh D: anyways yeah.

I LOVE TWILIGHT! NO LIE (: It is my new obession (: imma buy it and watch it EVERY DAY :D <# hehehe i think its even better than kktobodanamja :o GHARKJGAHSK OMG YEAH i said it heh well my sister is getting annoyed of me typing and i must study so night :D hehehe <#

-LOVE PCK<33

OH BTW :

i hate.

stress. & peopel who make me stressed. but most of all, i hate people who use me. not in particular, n ot today, not this week. just in general. i mean its not fair. i always let peopel step on me. and i never learn -_-x

hmm pamelas party was fun (= learned alot, laughed alot, did alot (: i love yah<3 oh btw to them girls, im not pissed ;D you knmow who you are. im just ghasjkghask yeah hehe (: i got the hook up though. with your butt HAHA JK :D im chill now so no worries hmm (:

im fucken tired only got 3 hours of sleep -_-x

one month in a week (= and i hate summer school its WAY too fast im like failing -_-x FUCK ME MAN. ugh. i need a new phone and i need to go wrap the present.

i wish people would change and just see the better side of the world :/ i need to study like FUCk tomorrow.

k bye :D

-LOVE pck.

short & simple.

my blogs are always so long. hehe anywhoo. i love seeing people happy it makes me so happy. even though im not. HAHA ;D i think now im so good at hiding my feelings (= like right now you dont know if im sad or happy. heh.

yeah so my problems just keep getting worse and worse -_-x i thought that being with you is supposed to make me feel better, but i just feel like shit more and more & because of you i want to give up on everything.


Mad- Neyo. fits me (:
i guess.
i hate the constant fighting. i wish it would stop.
D: man i need a psychiatrist. i hate bottling up my true feelings! D: i miss them old talks with the girls :/

well atleast tomorrow is thursday!
maybe friday will be good (= cuhs i need it.

-LOVE pck. <3

Bullets.

lets make a blog with just bullets of what i want/ need/ hate/ like and stuff

- i need a hair cut
- i need a life
- i need a break
- i want to go to the beach
- i want to go to disneyland
- i want someone to get it.
- i hate the feeeling of being alone
- i hate having no money
- i hate people with good lives
HAHA.
- i hate cold mornings but hot days.
- i hate swimming after a nasty family just spit their shit in the water, and probably peed in the pool.
- i hate how i used to be so close with peopel and now its liek they dont even know my name.
- i hate how i have no fashion sense.
-i hate never having rides.
- i hate that i dont push myself hard enough.
- i hate how you & me are always fighting
- i hate how one little thing you say can make me sad or mad.
- i like happy days.
- i like those days wehre its liek PERFECT beach weather.
- i like when somoeone ACTUALLY gets what im trying to say and i dont have to explain.
- i like when its one of those days, and someone says one little thing that changes it all.
- i like hugging people who smell good (:
- i like baking.
- i like being with the ones i love.
- i like when im having a shitty week, and then i forget about it ALL in a matter of seconds, or minutes cuhs of my friends or something.
- i liek when im in a realy sad mood or something, and your itunes is on shuffle, and the PERFECT song happens to play.
- i like singing when no ones listening, and i sound good.
- i like dancing to weird songs.
- i like...

idk.

(:

heheeheh. thats how i feel.
swimming with kay today, was relaxing. got my mind off the constant fighting -_-x.man its just.. ugh. summer school is gay. i hate mr chode :D -_-x. yeah. kay let me borrow her old phone and its nice :D eff tmobile.

-LOVE pck. <3

Dude

i usually blog like every day but ive been so busy and stressed lately i havent. so time to blogg (=

hehe HMM. i FUHREAKINGG hate summer school. bio is gay D: ughh i regret taking it i shouldve just tooken fucken music appreciation or something thats so easy -_-x im paying 360 dollars for a class that i can take fo' free next year. DANG! anywhoo mm this weekend was okayy FRIDAY: chill with the girlss at hmart area and then sarahs housee <3 and then priscas church with all them cutiess <3 (: wellkidna. and uhh saturday: woke up at liek 4 a.m and went to LA with mi madre and then got a few new tops from her friends and got somee MOOLAH (: and then went to this little boutique and bought a really chep and pretty ring, and necklace and earrings (= and then off to uncles new placee and celebrated grandma's birthday and father's day and ate nasty food and good cake :D hehe then went home and then went out to the moviess with my boo (: <3.and we watched the proposal but we were barely watchin the movie -_-x cuhs it wa sliek awkward at those naked parts and stripper parts and stuff.HHAHA so we just closed our eyes. >< mm omg we were outside and i was waiting for my sisters movie to finish and we were liek kissing and hten some rnadom people jst started watchign us and goign OOOHHLALALAL i was liek WTF. -_-X. ahha oh yeah friday this incident happened only one person knows >< and that one person isnt any of the usuals. its that old one. HAHA probably doesnt make sense but iT DOES TO MEE! (: heheh uhh and yeah today, is boring day i got to wake up at liek 1250 for the first time ever :D and then ate lunch and showered and went off to get videos and target and some starbucks (: and uhuh now im doing STUPID BIO HOMEWORK -_X fuck i needa go buy graph paper. imma dumbass!. my boyfriend pisses me off. alot. more than necessary, even though it seems liek were a good couple at times i just want to fucken rip his head off. AHHAHA :D needed to let that out. if you ask me why then you know i really odnt know what to tell you . you just gotta see how he acts sometimes its liek wtfucky. but i like him so much i cant just let go so thank god (: <3 uhh OH YEAH i forgot to put in thursday. so thursday i came home from, sumer school and brass camp and janelel came overr (: and at niight liek at 830 i went out wiht my sister to LIFE and she bought me the boat and its good (: and then we went looking around at life for liek 30 minutes and then i bought her crepes :D and then we stalled for like an hour and at like 1100 we went to puente and watched the 1200 am showing of year one! :D IT WAS SOOO FUNNY (: kidna it was sick at tiems too but dang it was pretty good (: and yeah then i came home at liek TWO THIRTYY -_X ahahh so latee.

mm dont you ever get the feeling liek youre so alone, even though youre with like a shitload of people?

economy still sucks. which sucks. HAHA :D

dangit i have to go back to homework -_x i hate how our weather is so emo. i hope its not too hot tomorrow :D okay bye.

-LOVE pck.

Officially

Worried -_-x

fuck fuck fuck. why is our economy so bad? why is life so fucked up? i wish i could grow up and be rich, and help my family. but thats not happenning anytime soon -_-x


yeah emo blog.

summer school sucks. family life sucks. love life.... -__- yeah idk. fuck it man fuck it all.

Drifting Apart.

DUDE since high school started it seems like everyones drifting apart from each other. I was like thinking about it today and like high school changed everyone. and i mean EVERYONE okay maybe some of the weirdo peopel out there are still weirdos but other than that its like i feel so different D: i miss the old times. i think alot of people do. liek friends i used to be SO CLOSE WITH , its liek now i pass by them in the hallways and i just get a hesitant look, and it really hurts, or liek i go HI BLANK and then theyre just like oh hi and they talk with the "new" people. its pretty effed. everyone has changed whether its for the better or for the worst, and honestly i would liek to go back to the way things were, but with the situation im in its liek i cant leave, but i sometimes just wish.. eh idk.



& yeah i cant believe this year went by SO quickly, there was so much shit we all went through and damn i cant believe some of that shit ACTUALLY happened. y'know? and im pretty bummed i drifted apart from the people that i drifted apart from D: its liek depressing. LOL. no really though talking to my past friends i used to be super close with, i realize that i really missed out in my freshman year, i really fucked it up, and i reallly just should've done better, should've experienced more, shouldve tried more things , should've hung out with the right people but since i cant turn back time, how about just doing better now? so from now on imma try to be friends with everyoen hang with everyone and just do everythign i didnt get to do (:

like i said a while back.
I freaking miss my past, im okay with the present, and im scared of the future. it just sucks we all drifted apart, we used to be liek a family and now its liek we dont even know each other -_-x yeah pretty gay.

I miss you guys. yeah you guys you know who you are :/ i wish we could turn back. ONE MORE PICTURE! ><

dude we look so happy then<3 what happened?

Kissing

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

(: today was a good day. LOL i seem liek such a psycho, but i am lauhing hysterically cuhs billy came over today and we were matching like not on purpose seriously it was so weird i was wearin black leggings white flats red and white dress and then a jacket and billy wore black skinnies white converse red shirt and white vest. LOLOL omg it was hilarious xD anywhoo. kissingg... making out... makes sense ? if you catch my drift. :D AHHA GOT THAT FROM JANELLE <3 LOLOL anywhoo yeah (: so j'ai fait avec mon copain beaucoup aujourd'hui. PAHAHAH it was pretty yeah too -_-x dude dont be offended if i dotn tell you >< i only told my super close friends :D heheh <3 well still have to tell a few so just wait (: anywyas yeah so dang i never knew i would ME out of all people im so innocent man! >< AHAHAH. i chaned it cuhs it ISS too public ><

anyways oh& randy and kay came after and my love of my life came <3 THE UKULELE OR WHATVER LOLOL! (: its still here (: L<3 who knows what ill do all night ;D.. thats right imma stay up learning it LOLOL XD yeah so i feel bad cuhs i think randy and kay were bored D: and it was awkward when kay walked in and we were... HAHAHAHAHAH! <3 i lvoe kay (: anywyas i spent liek 30 bucks on pizza for us x_x boo. oh well. yeah so im no differnt so no one call me anything im not (: HAHAH. ehhh whatevs.

mm lets hang out seriously (: my mom thinks im such a loser cuhs i never go out -_-x FUCK so lets plan YES?!no lie people alwyas go OMG LETS HANG and we never do... D: HAHAH so lame.

lets live it up guys (= take joy in what you have now. <3

-LOVE pck. <3 (:

Summer Days

haha, this summer is whateverss.
couple of days i was just home doing like NOTHING literrally -_-x but yesterday was supah fun. went over to debbies and chilled for a whiel then went over to SP and had my lesson and so did debbie, while prisca and sarah waited ;D and after my dad picked us up and we went to the village area and ate chipotle <3 and then shoopped around :D then we came back to my place and watched THE NOTEBOOK <3 and ate and talked about boys boys boys and friends. LOL and we realized.,...

isnt it annoying how theres alot of pretty/decent girls at DBHS but theres liek 5 fucken OKAY guys and all the hot ones are like UNTOUCHABLE. wtf is that man -_-x thats good for the boys, but how about us? were stuck with the nasty ugly ones? WELLL actually im not sayin I am cuhs i love my boyfriend, but the other people man, i feel your pain kinda <3 (: hehe.

yeah anywyas i also learned peopel are hard to trust and i really hate hypocrites.-_-x

it is currently 1:38 p.m and sarah and prisca are still sleepin, i just woke up, and dbeorah left at 10:30 without any of us knowing. PAHAH. how beautiful -_-x

well time to go annoy the shit out of them! (:

live life good. i miss the old times. let's hang out! <3

-LOVE pck <3

First

kisses..


hahah (: so today deborah came over & we walked to billy's house and then we walked to maple park and just sat together and deborah did swings >< and then we went back to billys house and then it was borin so we walked to my house and then uhh deborah left so it was juts me and billy & we got bored so we walked over to my pool area and we were just chillin and stuff (= and its a long story but first kiss today guys (= there was an awkard thing too but i wont get into that cuhs WHO KNOWS whose readin this HAHAH >< anywyas yeahh so got my first kiss today (= hehe <3 so this boyfriend took my virgin hands and lips >< but THATS IT! (:

hahaa dramma with that shit man -__x its no biggie so just drop it. okay? i still love you (:

LOL well thats pretty much the big news for today. i got my first kiss <3

lets hang out this summer (=

-LOVE pck <3

Sunday Morning.

ahha love that song <3
anyways. came home at like 1030 a.m from crystals house, and showered then ate lunchh and then fell asleep watching kung fu panda. PAHAH. wow my lie is so boring and pathetic! oh well. ACTUALLY it was just today that was boring. uhh MY SISTER LEFT FOR A WEEK TO MY COUSINS CRIB i didn't feel like going. so PARTY AT MY HOUSE FOOLS! (: <3 PAHAH seriously man i'm so happy. (: but i guess it'll be kinda lonely.. well ill get to see how its gonna be like next year. that is if my mom, changes her mind about yeah. D: boo hoo. I MADE PACIFIC so its kinda easier if i do though. FUCK. oh well. im not going to stress about that. SUMMERR LOVEE <3 hehe (: everyone should get that >< but i kinda hate it be in summer cuhs i miss him more D: LOl okay that was gay. anyways.

mm this is kinda like personal it isn't general. does that make sense? i mean its only to like one person.. i think. okay well. so yeah i feel like you're changing & its not for the better. and i feel like we're drifting? like you just cant trust me or tell me anything anymore. and i'm not saying tell me everything cuhs you never really did, but i'm just saying where'd it all go? you know? like it's a time where i need you & only you and you're all of a sudden changing up on me. i know maybe its not on purpose, and maybe your just sick of me, but friends are still friends, aren't they? hopefully. who knows. whenever i hear the word change, i always think for the better, but i guess in this case, in most cases with my life, change is for the worse.

BLEH.! whatever i'm not emo at all right now! HAHA. cuhs im super happy (= <3 but yeah that part just is bugging me right now & i feel bad cuhs im bitching at alot of people lately for little things cuhs im just so -_- about some things. SORRY KIDS <3 heh. anywhoo. yesterday was fun. today was boring. hopefully tomorrow will be okay? live life guys. & right now i miss my past, im becoming content with my present, and my future looks....

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."- helen keller.

that's so true. let's just leave it at that..

-LOVE pck. <3

CRYSTAL LEE

happy birthday (: iknow i said it alot huh? ahha text, aim and now blog (= YAY. heheh amen to technology (;<3 anywhooo i hope you have a good one (: ill see you latahh <3

UHHHH so yesterday the girlies came over the 3 besties <3 i guess (: hehe and we just chilleddd and ate and ate and then we took a walk right?and i didnt know where we were going but i just followed liek agood little girl and then GUESS WHERE WE ENDED UP GOING? BILLYS HOUSE -_-X theyre so fucken gayy :D <3 but i liked it but he was at chap playing ball so we went there and they MADE me come and then yeah but i missed him so it was all good (= and when i woke up i totally forgot he was my boyfriend so when someone asked me i wa sliek wtf no and then i felt bad after and i told him so he got all -_- AHHAAH so its all good cuhs i just kissed him on the cheek ;D hhahha. CHEEK i am innocent guyss! (: eheheh but yes so i think this summer will be a good one <3 (: i hope everyone has fun! deborah slept over last night and i made her look like a hairy beast :D hehehe well time to go shower, movie and hten shop, and then later out <33 (: my dogs here he says BARK ahah jk im lame -_-x nice to be happy.

-LOVE pck. <3

6/4/09 <3

OKAY SO today was liek THE best day ever ever ever <3

well FIRST i got liek a super good grade on my english final cuhs my grade went up 2 pecent! ;D and then fifth period all the people i TA for was super nice and stuff <3 and uh uh after school billy and i were like walking around holding hands, and then after like 2 hours we FINALLY walked down -_-x and then i met billys friend YET hehe i like his name! (= and uh hehe, its official now guys! everybodys been anticipating it, and its here i officially have a boyfriend (: <3. heh and then i got to see my family today and we ate and then i got a call for psyo and I MADE IT! <333 im so happy! omgomg and then we played at graduation and it was pretty good. im so proud of my sister for making it this far <3 but she lost my letter i wrote her D: im so sad. and uhuh we went out to eat dinner after and i was so happy cuhs i ate with my dad AND mom for the first time so i felt like i was actually in a REAL family (= so over all today was liek THE BEST EVER <3 other than the fact i was super ugly -_-x but whatvers. so yeah highlight of the day was being asked out though (= he's such a cutie & i couldnt have asked for a better boyfriend to get (: <3 hehe. AND today is the last day of school this is so beautiful <3 everyone lets chill over the summerrr! (: im glad its here i needed it <3 hehe wel yeah lets all take a break until summer school -_- and i wish everyone the besteststs luck <3 hehehe.

-LOVE pck <3 (:

Big Deal.

People need to mind their business once in the while.
& yeah i appreciate the kindness, and like all the caring youre giving me, but im not in the mood for you to tell me what or waht not to do. okay?!

and I'm sorry if ive been really bitchy or something lately, like getting mad super easily, but lately everythings just so confusing! liek okay so my love life is going pretty good, but now i dont know what i should do. sometimes i feel liek he DOESNT like me so im like shit i dont want to be annoying, and just end up getting hurt, so what if its best to drop it? but hell no i dont want to cuhs i really really like him! i need a sign D: and its pretty depressing how he said that peopel told him i make arelaly really big deal out of things. half of the people who told him that shit probably doesnt know what ive been through -_-x im a sensitive person, but thats not my fault. lord have mercy -__- well idk. im falling for him so i wont give up yet! D: i just need to know he likes me for reals :/ i have trust issues.

Schools almost over and im so heppy! (=
i pray for you every night no matter what i say :/
Youre the best thing thats ever happened to me.
I wish we would get along.
I miss you.
We need to talk.
Are you getting sick of me?
Whats happened to the world?

Just questions to people.. you probably cant guess who >< hehe.

well yeah im pretty tired but i have orchestra AGAIN -_X til lliek 930 fuck my life. not realkly! just life is getting stressful again, but i was trying to be so happy! -_- i wish i never got involved in stupid shit. i need a break good thing summer break is coming at this time. i want to leave forever.everyone just .. to me now -_-x idk.

-LOVE pck. <3

lalaland.

I think right now everyone needs a break from everything!
seriously just reading peoples blogs, just gets me so down, especially one person, we used to be so close and like although we do say hi and bye occasionally i miss going to each others' houses sleeping over and talking about pointless thing for hours she probably is reading this, but yeah if you know who you are, i miss seventh and eigth grade when we were so close, remember all those weird times, like the jumper incident, and all that shit? yeah i guess high school really changes people, but reading your blog, it just gets me down, and i wish i could be there for you like i used to be, but you have your new friends now.

LOL okay i just wanted to let that out its been inide me for a while..

right now i dont want to care abotu anything, cuhs im just so happy about the guy i like <3 hehe but NO WE ARE NOT TOGETHER! for everyone who is askign, i wish we were, but thats it 5/23/09 is just a good day cuhs i held hands for the first time ever HAHAHA. how sad.

anyways, yeah happy memorial day? (: summer soon so lets chill alot! <3 nexxt week is so busy with auditions, recitals, concerts, rehearsals, and finals, WISH ME LUCK D: im so worried, and fitness testing man im out off shape PAHAH obviously wahtver fuck this shit! okay well smile kiddos (: i hope that my happiness can spread like the swine flu to you guys cuhs im a pig oink oink (=
hehehe love you guysss <333 (:


orchestra later. FUCK -_-X

well yeah happpy happpyy! :D schools almost over remember?
& i hope that if that guy ever asks me out we last lojng :D
HEHEHE.

-LOVE Pck<3(:

Best Day EVER (: <3

So for everyone whose gonna ask why,
well let me tell you why (: heheh
so today lets see slept over sarah's house friday night which was totally fun <3 and then got picked up and my dad visited with my old DOG <33 and i was so happy cuhs i really missed him (:and we chilled with my dog and stuff till like 3 and then i went out to target and FINALY bought a freakign microwave, and then bought a new vneck (= and uhh then got home and did my hair and makeup and got dressed, and then picked up prisca at like 545 and headed out to cuee! (:andd we waited for a bit and then billy and david otsu came (; and yeah i met david for the first time but hes super chill (: and like yeahh hes not awkward. HAHAHA. im weird. but yeah and we ate which was kinda awkward, and then we took pictures at cue (: pictures are coming soon just dont have a scanner! but yeah so the four of us took a booth, and then me and billy just took one together (: and it was fun (= and mm then we went outside into the COLD and walked arond, then we sat and played truth or dare, which was kind of pointless cuhs billy was the only one who would ACTUALLY do his dares ahah and we all just chose truth -_- and uhh then david left and mm it was super cold, and let's just say... i'm not virgin hands anymore >< PAHAHHA. so yes that is why my day was the bset day ever (: <3. but yeah i hope this one lasts long, cuhs i really really really like this guy so yeah (= im glad im finally happy, and something is ACTUALLY workign out for once! :D but yeah thanks to prisca for coming <3 (: heheh.

yeah idk why i just explained all that but yeah i just wnated tooo (:

and i hope this weekend is good, cuhs yeah but i dont care cuhs im smiling like a fool everytime i think about today :D <3

time to go watch movies! (: heheh.

5/23/09 best day ever <3 (:

Brace Yourself..

LOL :D everybody be happy for whoever didn't win seriously its okay! (: <3

CRYSTAL LEE- YOU DID SO EFFING GOOD & YOU DID YOUR BEST SO FUCK WHOEVER WON I CANT EVEN REMEMBER HIS NAME CUHS THATS HOW UN IMPORTANT HE IS MMKAY? smile lady (: youre always there when im down! (: <3

EVELYN NAA- dude you did good okay?! (: dont be mad i think it should have been you, BUT atleast we'll know he'll get the job done y'know?! (: <3 so smile lady , ill be here for you like when you always send me those smile texts! (:

MICHELLE KIM- you made THE best bracelets, and they were so cute (= i think you would have been so good cuhs youre good at everything! dont sweat it (: it was gay though D: im here for yah babe (: <3

MICHELLE PARK- its okay bud! you did your best with them balls (; heheheh jk thats gross. dont worry! (: next year for sure hubba! (: <3 remember that?


anywho, been thinking about the past, and the prsent, and the future, and hoenstly, i miss the past, im sick of the present, and im scared of the future, so i really dont know where i fit into this whole mess we call a world, but i'm sticking through it.:D mm i juts baked like for two hours, for the guy i likes birthday (= hehe <3

hmm this week is / was so busy! and next week too -_- gahh auditions coming up and im not ready! D: wish me luck <333
heheh (:

tryna be happy , getting sick of pushign myself so hard -_-x i feel bad cuhs lately im getting pissed off at everything cuhs im like freakign cranky cuhs i barely get sleep -_-x and im sorry if i bitch at you or something, its just not my time righ tnow. LOL >< if that made sense. well yeah so tryna chill out, but everylittle thing seems to get on my nerves -_- i need some anger managemenet. AND OMG band awards night i got freaking drama queen but IM NO DRAMA QUEEN
AHAHAHAHHAHA >< oh well (;

stay coool fools! (; im the master ryhmer :D

-LOVE pck <3

Fridays (;

Are always/ usually good >< LOL.
today was a pretty good one!

but ohmygosh, YESTERDAY WAS THE WORST DAY EVER. lemme tell you, okay so first I woke up late, and then I get out of the house, and forget my horn so I run back in, and then i\I get to kays house and i realize that I don't have my sister's binder so I drop my horn and RUN over to my house,and get my sisters binder, and as I get out of the car to school, I fucking drop my sister's binder in a fucking puddle, and then a few seconds later I TRIP -_-X wtf man. it was like THE worst day ever. and then the past few days I've been wearing like shorts and like something breezy, and it's pretty cold, and then Ia wore freaking skinny jeans, dress, and thick cardigan yesterday, and ALL OF A SUDDEN it's hot. WTF MAN -_-X but enough on that.

TODAY was a pretty good day (=, hmm we didn't play in band , which was a total plus <3 and then uh during brunch, the guy I likee, came to my area for like the first time, (: and gave me my good luck hug, and I seriously think it helped! LOL and uhh during lunch, went to the peer counseling thing, and pretty bummed out that I missed out on it, but watching the guy I like battle was pretty funny ;D hehe, and I think he looked super cute in his flannel, no matter WHO says he looks like a GAY FARMER ;D hahaah <3. mm, during french, stupid chelsea made me run to my locker and get her cardigan, and then she didn't even need it. GAY and I like got freaking minus 6 out of 35 on my quiz which is bad! I think. LOL. mm and then after school, jared let me borrow his ukulele or whatever, and OMG I really want one! it's so cool :D hehe I can KINDA play theheh, compared to how bad I am at guitar, I think I did pretty good :D mm and uhh got my new picture with the guyy, FINALLY (;

So overall, this week was pretty good. like, well just tuesday, and today I think were the best days >< PAHAHA. mm, the one thing I really hate though, is how a guy can change my whole mood. you know? like if the guy hurts my feelings, my whole day will be SHIT,but then if he does something sweet, it's like the best day ever. it's pretty gay, I wish I were like deborah, she gets happy over small things, which is really good. LOL like food, she gets sooo excited everytime she thinks about waht she's gonna eat. HAHAH

anywhoo, dress shopping soon!? hopefully, cuhs I really need a new dress, I want to look pretty on band awards night (=

I just remembered this quote someone told me something like, that you know youre in love, when reality, has become better than your dreams or something?.. yeah (: i'm not saying i'm in love, cuhs that's way too soon, but I haven't felt this happy in a while, and i'm glad, that I met this guy, cuhs he makes me smile, whenever i need it (: <3 I just hope I don't push him away or do stupid things that'll just end up hurting me -_-x WHATEVER, too soon for that shit! (:

Love what you have, and live life, like theres no tomorrow, there wont be any room for regret (=

-LOVE pck. <3

One of THOSE days..

HAHA, okay so I know I said I'd do happy blogs, so here it is, im gonna do HALF happy H HALF how im really feeling :D deal? deal :D
hehehe, im talking to myself.

anywayss...
so let's see today was pretty shitty day cuhs like lunch, that one guy was like sitting with the girl that likes him, and then like she always flashes me weird looks so I feel like some creeper, and then I just acted like I didn't care, so I haven't even talked to that guy the whole day D: BOO HOO for me, haha whateverss, I don't like having to text him first all the time, LOLOL i sound like such a whiney brat, BUT just not today, it's seriously like I'm not having a good day, so if I talk to him then GREAT, cuhs i need a cheering up, but then if he doesn't talk to me today, then I'll just go through with my bad day -_- lame. cuhs I dont want him thinking im some weird over reacting psycho. HAHAHA >< well anywyas, after that my sister bitched at me for no effing apparent reason, and MAN i need a hug so bad right now -_- too bad for me LOL everybody give me a big hug tomorrow (; ugh i hate my sister seriously she keeps like beating on me like jsut cuhs she feels like it, i hate her i really really really want to leave this place. -____- fuck. and then my fuckign fifth period teacher, got pissed at me cuhs i had to go run to my sister, cuhs she lost her freakign keys -_-x and so yeah, today wasn't a great day, but let's be happy now..

KJGHAKJGHKSJG
HAHAHAH (: omg dude i soudn so fuckign bipolar HAHA (;
so after school janelle came over, and we had a really good talk (: hehe that brownie in the back pantry ;D you and me janelle <3 we get it (:hehe i think oyu & brownie should get together :D he's cute (= like seriously i'd go for him HAHA (: so do it :D heheh and uhhh i made pasta today and i think i should be a chef (; lol and julia the great gave mea bag load of strings, so MORE BRACELETS! lol its kinda fun now (= im thinking about making like matching bracelets for me and people (; hehe. man im such a loser i just sit here and sing by myself when im home alonee . LOl dude i need to study for my freaking math midterm, which is friday -_-x and im gonna fail f'sho.LOLOl oh well ill just study real real real hard :D since im not texting today, its all good (; but id rather be texting D: but i guess not :/ LOl wtf anywhoo yeah

my sisters walkign around ina fucking dress, and i want to suicide right now its so sick
LOLOL (=

life's full of sluts& whores, and if thats what you want, GO FOR IT. but that's a mistake (;

hehe well time to study. YEAH RIGHT :D hehehehe, oh my, im talking to myself huh how embarassing....

so today
OH my goodness
oh MY goodness
oh my GOODness
oh my goodNESS

HELLO my name is christien
hello MY name is christine
hello my NAME is christine
hello my name IS christine
hello my name is CHRIStine
hello my name is chrisTINE

hhehe , try sounding those out, emphasize the capatlized words, it soudns so funny (;

well yeah, so today sucks balls. i wish he'd text mee. oh well.

-LOVE pck <3

Fresh Start.

Okayy so i deleted ALLL them emo blogs guys! (:

and just kept my FIRST blog ever. hahah cause i was tlaking to crystal and debbie while we were WORKING OUTT, and then i realized im like soo stressed, and like pretty people are happy, so i need to be happy! :D and like i get so many pimples cuhs of stress too LOLOL and like yeahh i just need to be a happpier person overall! (:

okay so, today was liek THE BEST DAY EVER. like first of all, i REALLY liked my outfit today, and we hada free day in MATH PLUS i found out i got agood grade on my test, and then omg lunch <3 so i told the guy i like, that i like him, and he likes me back! (: i was so happy, it was like SOOO unexpected, cuhs even though he KINDA acted liek it, i doubted taht he would like a girl like me! D: but i shant be pesssimistic AHAH havent used taht word in centuries, but yeah (: so it was such a good day<3 (: and i like when he gives me hugs its so like (: <3 it makes my days, i wish he would hug me every single day ;D HAHAHA.

EHH but im pretty liek wtfy about summer school. cuhs i got in which is good, BUT mrs.irving wont let me take chemistry my sophmore year, which means i have to take freakign peer counsling, which is gay cuhs the onjly reason i payed 360 FREAKIGN DOLLARS TO TAKE A CLASS I CAN TAKE FOR FREE NEXT YEAR, is so i can be caught up in science with all my friends! wtfuck man im so pissed -_-x
BUT WHATVER.

ughh should be doign math homework right noww, fuck that bitchh i hate her! -_-x
she cant teach for her effing life man! D:

but whateverrss, hopefully, ill be in a relationship later on this school year or somethign (;
haahah jkjk, i wish! D:

kk well happy happy day (: ill try positing HAPPY blogs from now on (: <3 its a fresh start! (;

-LOVE pck <3

Dont you hate..

when youre foot falls asleep , and then the FREAKING bell rings for your next class and im like oh shit what do i do?!
-_-x
fuck man
okay well
first blog for janelle(:
WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW<33
15 years of pure excitement love.(:
uhm well dont you really hate when someone says one thing to your face, and a TOTALLY differnt thing to someone else?
bottom line is trust no one but yourself.

okay so idk if this is too much BUT i shall go on.

my dad is visiting this weekend!
& rehearsal till 11:30 at night on friday -_-x
oh joy.

well ill m ake a quote of the day(:
hopefully everyday?

" Go ahead and live life regretting things, because atleast you'll know that you took chances in life, just keep on walking down the path to your destiny and God will do the rest."- PCK

peacee (:
-PCK love.