TWILIGHT.

is my new obsession<3
omg i juts watched it for the first time today (; and it is the best. heheheh :D omg i love it edward cullen is so hot holy shit and the story plot is os cute
GHARSDJKGHJKR iw asliek wtfuck why is everyone so obsessed with it and NOW I KNOW WHY HOLY MOLY HE IS THE FUCKENHOTTEST MOFO ALIVE HES BETTER THAN LIEK I DONT EVEN KNOW BUT SHIT <3 OMG I LOVE THAT MOVIE imma go buy it (: someone buy it for me no lie! i will love you forever if you do (: <3 seriously holy moly guacamole he is so FUCKEN hot why did no one tell me sooner?! i wish my birthday was near so i can ask for twilight stuff (=- dude this is like my new super junior! idk if anyone gets that ;D but yeah HAEHHEEHHEHEHE <3 omg he is so fine (: i cant wait for new moon seriously imma be one of those dorks whose like sitting there waiting in line for hours just for the tickets to come out (= FUCK YEAH BITCHESSSS :D hehehe <3 anyways yeah.

its liek 120 in the morning and i should be studying for bio -_-x i felt liek SHIT but now im feeling pretty good cuhs of twilight (: <3 heh but stupid two boys. they know hwo they are always fucking with me -_-x just calm down guys. ugh D: anyways yeah.

I LOVE TWILIGHT! NO LIE (: It is my new obession (: imma buy it and watch it EVERY DAY :D <# hehehe i think its even better than kktobodanamja :o GHARKJGAHSK OMG YEAH i said it heh well my sister is getting annoyed of me typing and i must study so night :D hehehe <#

-LOVE PCK<33

OH BTW :

i hate.

stress. & peopel who make me stressed. but most of all, i hate people who use me. not in particular, n ot today, not this week. just in general. i mean its not fair. i always let peopel step on me. and i never learn -_-x

hmm pamelas party was fun (= learned alot, laughed alot, did alot (: i love yah<3 oh btw to them girls, im not pissed ;D you knmow who you are. im just ghasjkghask yeah hehe (: i got the hook up though. with your butt HAHA JK :D im chill now so no worries hmm (:

im fucken tired only got 3 hours of sleep -_-x

one month in a week (= and i hate summer school its WAY too fast im like failing -_-x FUCK ME MAN. ugh. i need a new phone and i need to go wrap the present.

i wish people would change and just see the better side of the world :/ i need to study like FUCk tomorrow.

k bye :D

-LOVE pck.

short & simple.

my blogs are always so long. hehe anywhoo. i love seeing people happy it makes me so happy. even though im not. HAHA ;D i think now im so good at hiding my feelings (= like right now you dont know if im sad or happy. heh.

yeah so my problems just keep getting worse and worse -_-x i thought that being with you is supposed to make me feel better, but i just feel like shit more and more & because of you i want to give up on everything.


Mad- Neyo. fits me (:
i guess.
i hate the constant fighting. i wish it would stop.
D: man i need a psychiatrist. i hate bottling up my true feelings! D: i miss them old talks with the girls :/

well atleast tomorrow is thursday!
maybe friday will be good (= cuhs i need it.

-LOVE pck. <3

Bullets.

lets make a blog with just bullets of what i want/ need/ hate/ like and stuff

- i need a hair cut
- i need a life
- i need a break
- i want to go to the beach
- i want to go to disneyland
- i want someone to get it.
- i hate the feeeling of being alone
- i hate having no money
- i hate people with good lives
HAHA.
- i hate cold mornings but hot days.
- i hate swimming after a nasty family just spit their shit in the water, and probably peed in the pool.
- i hate how i used to be so close with peopel and now its liek they dont even know my name.
- i hate how i have no fashion sense.
-i hate never having rides.
- i hate that i dont push myself hard enough.
- i hate how you & me are always fighting
- i hate how one little thing you say can make me sad or mad.
- i like happy days.
- i like those days wehre its liek PERFECT beach weather.
- i like when somoeone ACTUALLY gets what im trying to say and i dont have to explain.
- i like when its one of those days, and someone says one little thing that changes it all.
- i like hugging people who smell good (:
- i like baking.
- i like being with the ones i love.
- i like when im having a shitty week, and then i forget about it ALL in a matter of seconds, or minutes cuhs of my friends or something.
- i liek when im in a realy sad mood or something, and your itunes is on shuffle, and the PERFECT song happens to play.
- i like singing when no ones listening, and i sound good.
- i like dancing to weird songs.
- i like...

idk.

(:

heheeheh. thats how i feel.
swimming with kay today, was relaxing. got my mind off the constant fighting -_-x.man its just.. ugh. summer school is gay. i hate mr chode :D -_-x. yeah. kay let me borrow her old phone and its nice :D eff tmobile.

-LOVE pck. <3

Dude

i usually blog like every day but ive been so busy and stressed lately i havent. so time to blogg (=

hehe HMM. i FUHREAKINGG hate summer school. bio is gay D: ughh i regret taking it i shouldve just tooken fucken music appreciation or something thats so easy -_-x im paying 360 dollars for a class that i can take fo' free next year. DANG! anywhoo mm this weekend was okayy FRIDAY: chill with the girlss at hmart area and then sarahs housee <3 and then priscas church with all them cutiess <3 (: wellkidna. and uhh saturday: woke up at liek 4 a.m and went to LA with mi madre and then got a few new tops from her friends and got somee MOOLAH (: and then went to this little boutique and bought a really chep and pretty ring, and necklace and earrings (= and then off to uncles new placee and celebrated grandma's birthday and father's day and ate nasty food and good cake :D hehe then went home and then went out to the moviess with my boo (: <3.and we watched the proposal but we were barely watchin the movie -_-x cuhs it wa sliek awkward at those naked parts and stripper parts and stuff.HHAHA so we just closed our eyes. >< mm omg we were outside and i was waiting for my sisters movie to finish and we were liek kissing and hten some rnadom people jst started watchign us and goign OOOHHLALALAL i was liek WTF. -_-X. ahha oh yeah friday this incident happened only one person knows >< and that one person isnt any of the usuals. its that old one. HAHA probably doesnt make sense but iT DOES TO MEE! (: heheh uhh and yeah today, is boring day i got to wake up at liek 1250 for the first time ever :D and then ate lunch and showered and went off to get videos and target and some starbucks (: and uhuh now im doing STUPID BIO HOMEWORK -_X fuck i needa go buy graph paper. imma dumbass!. my boyfriend pisses me off. alot. more than necessary, even though it seems liek were a good couple at times i just want to fucken rip his head off. AHHAHA :D needed to let that out. if you ask me why then you know i really odnt know what to tell you . you just gotta see how he acts sometimes its liek wtfucky. but i like him so much i cant just let go so thank god (: <3 uhh OH YEAH i forgot to put in thursday. so thursday i came home from, sumer school and brass camp and janelel came overr (: and at niight liek at 830 i went out wiht my sister to LIFE and she bought me the boat and its good (: and then we went looking around at life for liek 30 minutes and then i bought her crepes :D and then we stalled for like an hour and at like 1100 we went to puente and watched the 1200 am showing of year one! :D IT WAS SOOO FUNNY (: kidna it was sick at tiems too but dang it was pretty good (: and yeah then i came home at liek TWO THIRTYY -_X ahahh so latee.

mm dont you ever get the feeling liek youre so alone, even though youre with like a shitload of people?

economy still sucks. which sucks. HAHA :D

dangit i have to go back to homework -_x i hate how our weather is so emo. i hope its not too hot tomorrow :D okay bye.

-LOVE pck.

Officially

Worried -_-x

fuck fuck fuck. why is our economy so bad? why is life so fucked up? i wish i could grow up and be rich, and help my family. but thats not happenning anytime soon -_-x


yeah emo blog.

summer school sucks. family life sucks. love life.... -__- yeah idk. fuck it man fuck it all.

Drifting Apart.

DUDE since high school started it seems like everyones drifting apart from each other. I was like thinking about it today and like high school changed everyone. and i mean EVERYONE okay maybe some of the weirdo peopel out there are still weirdos but other than that its like i feel so different D: i miss the old times. i think alot of people do. liek friends i used to be SO CLOSE WITH , its liek now i pass by them in the hallways and i just get a hesitant look, and it really hurts, or liek i go HI BLANK and then theyre just like oh hi and they talk with the "new" people. its pretty effed. everyone has changed whether its for the better or for the worst, and honestly i would liek to go back to the way things were, but with the situation im in its liek i cant leave, but i sometimes just wish.. eh idk.



& yeah i cant believe this year went by SO quickly, there was so much shit we all went through and damn i cant believe some of that shit ACTUALLY happened. y'know? and im pretty bummed i drifted apart from the people that i drifted apart from D: its liek depressing. LOL. no really though talking to my past friends i used to be super close with, i realize that i really missed out in my freshman year, i really fucked it up, and i reallly just should've done better, should've experienced more, shouldve tried more things , should've hung out with the right people but since i cant turn back time, how about just doing better now? so from now on imma try to be friends with everyoen hang with everyone and just do everythign i didnt get to do (:

like i said a while back.
I freaking miss my past, im okay with the present, and im scared of the future. it just sucks we all drifted apart, we used to be liek a family and now its liek we dont even know each other -_-x yeah pretty gay.

I miss you guys. yeah you guys you know who you are :/ i wish we could turn back. ONE MORE PICTURE! ><

dude we look so happy then<3 what happened?

Kissing

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
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(: today was a good day. LOL i seem liek such a psycho, but i am lauhing hysterically cuhs billy came over today and we were matching like not on purpose seriously it was so weird i was wearin black leggings white flats red and white dress and then a jacket and billy wore black skinnies white converse red shirt and white vest. LOLOL omg it was hilarious xD anywhoo. kissingg... making out... makes sense ? if you catch my drift. :D AHHA GOT THAT FROM JANELLE <3 LOLOL anywhoo yeah (: so j'ai fait avec mon copain beaucoup aujourd'hui. PAHAHAH it was pretty yeah too -_-x dude dont be offended if i dotn tell you >< i only told my super close friends :D heheh <3 well still have to tell a few so just wait (: anywyas yeah so dang i never knew i would ME out of all people im so innocent man! >< AHAHAH. i chaned it cuhs it ISS too public ><

anyways oh& randy and kay came after and my love of my life came <3 THE UKULELE OR WHATVER LOLOL! (: its still here (: L<3 who knows what ill do all night ;D.. thats right imma stay up learning it LOLOL XD yeah so i feel bad cuhs i think randy and kay were bored D: and it was awkward when kay walked in and we were... HAHAHAHAHAH! <3 i lvoe kay (: anywyas i spent liek 30 bucks on pizza for us x_x boo. oh well. yeah so im no differnt so no one call me anything im not (: HAHAH. ehhh whatevs.

mm lets hang out seriously (: my mom thinks im such a loser cuhs i never go out -_-x FUCK so lets plan YES?!no lie people alwyas go OMG LETS HANG and we never do... D: HAHAH so lame.

lets live it up guys (= take joy in what you have now. <3

-LOVE pck. <3 (:

Summer Days

haha, this summer is whateverss.
couple of days i was just home doing like NOTHING literrally -_-x but yesterday was supah fun. went over to debbies and chilled for a whiel then went over to SP and had my lesson and so did debbie, while prisca and sarah waited ;D and after my dad picked us up and we went to the village area and ate chipotle <3 and then shoopped around :D then we came back to my place and watched THE NOTEBOOK <3 and ate and talked about boys boys boys and friends. LOL and we realized.,...

isnt it annoying how theres alot of pretty/decent girls at DBHS but theres liek 5 fucken OKAY guys and all the hot ones are like UNTOUCHABLE. wtf is that man -_-x thats good for the boys, but how about us? were stuck with the nasty ugly ones? WELLL actually im not sayin I am cuhs i love my boyfriend, but the other people man, i feel your pain kinda <3 (: hehe.

yeah anywyas i also learned peopel are hard to trust and i really hate hypocrites.-_-x

it is currently 1:38 p.m and sarah and prisca are still sleepin, i just woke up, and dbeorah left at 10:30 without any of us knowing. PAHAH. how beautiful -_-x

well time to go annoy the shit out of them! (:

live life good. i miss the old times. let's hang out! <3

-LOVE pck <3

First

kisses..


hahah (: so today deborah came over & we walked to billy's house and then we walked to maple park and just sat together and deborah did swings >< and then we went back to billys house and then it was borin so we walked to my house and then uhh deborah left so it was juts me and billy & we got bored so we walked over to my pool area and we were just chillin and stuff (= and its a long story but first kiss today guys (= there was an awkard thing too but i wont get into that cuhs WHO KNOWS whose readin this HAHAH >< anywyas yeahh so got my first kiss today (= hehe <3 so this boyfriend took my virgin hands and lips >< but THATS IT! (:

hahaa dramma with that shit man -__x its no biggie so just drop it. okay? i still love you (:

LOL well thats pretty much the big news for today. i got my first kiss <3

lets hang out this summer (=

-LOVE pck <3

Sunday Morning.

ahha love that song <3
anyways. came home at like 1030 a.m from crystals house, and showered then ate lunchh and then fell asleep watching kung fu panda. PAHAH. wow my lie is so boring and pathetic! oh well. ACTUALLY it was just today that was boring. uhh MY SISTER LEFT FOR A WEEK TO MY COUSINS CRIB i didn't feel like going. so PARTY AT MY HOUSE FOOLS! (: <3 PAHAH seriously man i'm so happy. (: but i guess it'll be kinda lonely.. well ill get to see how its gonna be like next year. that is if my mom, changes her mind about yeah. D: boo hoo. I MADE PACIFIC so its kinda easier if i do though. FUCK. oh well. im not going to stress about that. SUMMERR LOVEE <3 hehe (: everyone should get that >< but i kinda hate it be in summer cuhs i miss him more D: LOl okay that was gay. anyways.

mm this is kinda like personal it isn't general. does that make sense? i mean its only to like one person.. i think. okay well. so yeah i feel like you're changing & its not for the better. and i feel like we're drifting? like you just cant trust me or tell me anything anymore. and i'm not saying tell me everything cuhs you never really did, but i'm just saying where'd it all go? you know? like it's a time where i need you & only you and you're all of a sudden changing up on me. i know maybe its not on purpose, and maybe your just sick of me, but friends are still friends, aren't they? hopefully. who knows. whenever i hear the word change, i always think for the better, but i guess in this case, in most cases with my life, change is for the worse.

BLEH.! whatever i'm not emo at all right now! HAHA. cuhs im super happy (= <3 but yeah that part just is bugging me right now & i feel bad cuhs im bitching at alot of people lately for little things cuhs im just so -_- about some things. SORRY KIDS <3 heh. anywhoo. yesterday was fun. today was boring. hopefully tomorrow will be okay? live life guys. & right now i miss my past, im becoming content with my present, and my future looks....

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."- helen keller.

that's so true. let's just leave it at that..

-LOVE pck. <3

CRYSTAL LEE

happy birthday (: iknow i said it alot huh? ahha text, aim and now blog (= YAY. heheh amen to technology (;<3 anywhooo i hope you have a good one (: ill see you latahh <3

UHHHH so yesterday the girlies came over the 3 besties <3 i guess (: hehe and we just chilleddd and ate and ate and then we took a walk right?and i didnt know where we were going but i just followed liek agood little girl and then GUESS WHERE WE ENDED UP GOING? BILLYS HOUSE -_-X theyre so fucken gayy :D <3 but i liked it but he was at chap playing ball so we went there and they MADE me come and then yeah but i missed him so it was all good (= and when i woke up i totally forgot he was my boyfriend so when someone asked me i wa sliek wtf no and then i felt bad after and i told him so he got all -_- AHHAAH so its all good cuhs i just kissed him on the cheek ;D hhahha. CHEEK i am innocent guyss! (: eheheh but yes so i think this summer will be a good one <3 (: i hope everyone has fun! deborah slept over last night and i made her look like a hairy beast :D hehehe well time to go shower, movie and hten shop, and then later out <33 (: my dogs here he says BARK ahah jk im lame -_-x nice to be happy.

-LOVE pck. <3

6/4/09 <3

OKAY SO today was liek THE best day ever ever ever <3

well FIRST i got liek a super good grade on my english final cuhs my grade went up 2 pecent! ;D and then fifth period all the people i TA for was super nice and stuff <3 and uh uh after school billy and i were like walking around holding hands, and then after like 2 hours we FINALLY walked down -_-x and then i met billys friend YET hehe i like his name! (= and uh hehe, its official now guys! everybodys been anticipating it, and its here i officially have a boyfriend (: <3. heh and then i got to see my family today and we ate and then i got a call for psyo and I MADE IT! <333 im so happy! omgomg and then we played at graduation and it was pretty good. im so proud of my sister for making it this far <3 but she lost my letter i wrote her D: im so sad. and uhuh we went out to eat dinner after and i was so happy cuhs i ate with my dad AND mom for the first time so i felt like i was actually in a REAL family (= so over all today was liek THE BEST EVER <3 other than the fact i was super ugly -_-x but whatvers. so yeah highlight of the day was being asked out though (= he's such a cutie & i couldnt have asked for a better boyfriend to get (: <3 hehe. AND today is the last day of school this is so beautiful <3 everyone lets chill over the summerrr! (: im glad its here i needed it <3 hehe wel yeah lets all take a break until summer school -_- and i wish everyone the besteststs luck <3 hehehe.

-LOVE pck <3 (: